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  Being let down is hard, but I know it will be better in the end. Having a crush on a straight friend is not a fun thing to have but its exceedingly eye opening. I believe that we will only be closer after telling him how I feel. His response was concise but polite, and I can just hear him saying it to me in my head right now. I'm brought to the verge of tears when I think about having to move on and wait for someone else. Although this is strengthening me for the future. I just wish that we could have something more, we would be so good to each other and there's not a lot that I want more than that. I have to let the situation settle, and a

I'm sitting here in the numbing sound of a bunch of hungover people snoring and I can't help but wonder when my friend will wake up. Oh what I'd do to just get out of this house right now. There was this really cute kid last night, his name was Luke and he had the two really sexy piercings in his lip and I deeply would have liked to get to know him better. He seemed like a bank of knowledge, playing beer pong and smoking a joint right along side. He could have gone all night, and maybe he did. Although I had no way of knowing. And me being the shitty lightweight that I am passed out probably around 1 or 2 in the morning... Regrettably I fell